So, tomorrow is my last official day in Yaroslavl, and I have such mixed feelings about it!!! (Really, I was like a crazy person today, swinging between being super excited and just about crying). On one hand, I miss everyone soo much back home! On the other, this has become my home too!! How do I leave one to go to the other?
As any AFSer could understand, the end of the year is the hardest. You rush to try and get everything done, see everything and everyone, but you know that you really can't. There's no way to fit in everything, no matter how hard you may want to, but it doesn't make it any easier. Today we finished souvenir shopping, saw a park on the other side of town, went to the Planetarium, and went out for pizza. It was amazing, and sad and perfect and I wish it wouldn't have ended. The park turned out to be more of a big 18th century, beautiful building, and then a couple of ponds around it, all with "No Swimming" signs posted right by where the boys were jumping in. We dipped our feet in too, watched some adorable ducklings and took plenty of pictures, which I may or may not end up putting up when I get back. We'll see.)))
Tomorrow, I'll finish packing, we're going to go swimming, and then we'll figure something else out to do.
As I've said before, and as many of my AFSer friends are writing on their blogs right now, there are just so many conflicting feeling that come with this ending. This year has been such an amazing experience, one I barely have the words to describe, and the end of it is so terrible, and so wonderful at the same time. In some ways, the end of this year here in Russia is simply a continuation of my life back in the US, but in so many other ways, it is the start of something completely new. I keep telling myself that, reminding myself that this isn't even really the end of anything at all, but it's hard. It's hard to say goodbye and not know when I'll be returning. It's hard to know that when I do return, so much will have changed without me. And it's hard to know that no matter what I do, everything will change anyways and I can't stop it.
I'll try to embrace the change, take it in stride, and not just move on, but incooperate everything I've seen and learned this year into what I make of the rest of my life. I won't forget those lessons, or the people that taught them to me.
For now, I'll let my last word from Russia on this blog be in the form of a video that I think captures a lot of how I feel about my time here. Enjoy!
At Home in Russia
I'll see you soon, be home on Monday.
From Russia,
With Love,
Bettina
Friday, June 24, 2011
Saturday, June 18, 2011
10 Things That Make Me Happy
Just an idea that I got from a fellow blogger a while back that I'm hoping will make me feel a little better about this being my last week.
1. When it's going to get cold in the Spring or the summer, you always know because there's a tree that blooms white flowers to warn us. Then later, there's always this white cotton like stuff that floats around, and would be awful if you had allergies, but it looks like snow is falling amongst the flowers and leaves.
2. Because it's been so cold recently, I've been wearing favorite my coat out.
3. My "aunt" Anya came over yesterday and we talked for an hour just the two of us.
4. There's a book store in town that is closing down, so now all books are at least half off, and I found my all time favorite book there in Russian the other day!
5. I watched a movie with really fast Russian subtitles the other day, and it was hard but I read almost all of them.
6. I found a movie that I love with English subtitles and I can't wait to show everyone I know.
7. Murzic, our grumpy older cat, has been such a love bug the last two days! He slept with me, and when I picked him up, he sat with me (as opposed to clawing at me and leaping away).
8. While looking at all the pictures on her wall, Dinara realized that many of the pictures or things she had written had come true. Inna pointed out that her wall was covered in pictures of women... Hehe.
9. The mail man came to my house a long time ago and looked at me, then at my passport and announced "You've lost weight!" It really annoyed me at the time, but looking at my driver's licence recently, I realized that I have. :)
10. The oven that we bought the other day just arrived, and it'll be working as soon as the city gas people come and get the gas working!
With so little time left, I am doing my best not to be sad. I can't wait to see my family, friends and dogs. I still have so much left to do, including packing (which I have most certainly not figured out yet). I have two maps, a painting and many gifts. How to bring all this home? Well, I'm sure I'll figure it out.
Also, my dad asked for some pictures of the area around my house.
<-Winter (first snow)
Spring->
And here are a couple of my bedroom. For those that don't know, I live on the fifth floor (we have no elevator), we have one bedroom, a living room, kitchen and bathroom. It's small, but we're all girls, and I'm used to it. It's pretty normal for a Russian home, and it's not a bad thing if you catch on early and figure out how not to leave things on the floor. If anyone reads this and is going to Russia, keep in my that your room almost certainly won't be singularly your room, which means you have to keep it up.
I digress. The pictures:
On another quick note, I read Emily VanLoo's latest blog recently and realized how very true so many of the things she wrote there. Writing a blog has been really pretty hard for me because after a while, you settle back into things and life gets into a rhythm. Maybe it's not the rhythm I had in the US, but it's mine all the same, and one I forget to think or write about. Living in another country, whether on exchange or for any other reason, is an amazing experience, but it's life all the same. The difference is that I have learned to take the time to appreciate the things around me more, to take notice of things I might not if not for where I was.
I won't forget that lesson, even though it's a surprisingly hard one. Life may be rhythmic, repetitive, or even boring at times, but we still have lots of special little things that make it all worth it, that we so often forget to look at.
I will be back in the USA in a little over a week, and I know I won't take the little things for granted.
From Russia,
With Love,
Bettina
1. When it's going to get cold in the Spring or the summer, you always know because there's a tree that blooms white flowers to warn us. Then later, there's always this white cotton like stuff that floats around, and would be awful if you had allergies, but it looks like snow is falling amongst the flowers and leaves.
2. Because it's been so cold recently, I've been wearing favorite my coat out.
3. My "aunt" Anya came over yesterday and we talked for an hour just the two of us.
4. There's a book store in town that is closing down, so now all books are at least half off, and I found my all time favorite book there in Russian the other day!
5. I watched a movie with really fast Russian subtitles the other day, and it was hard but I read almost all of them.
6. I found a movie that I love with English subtitles and I can't wait to show everyone I know.
7. Murzic, our grumpy older cat, has been such a love bug the last two days! He slept with me, and when I picked him up, he sat with me (as opposed to clawing at me and leaping away).
8. While looking at all the pictures on her wall, Dinara realized that many of the pictures or things she had written had come true. Inna pointed out that her wall was covered in pictures of women... Hehe.
9. The mail man came to my house a long time ago and looked at me, then at my passport and announced "You've lost weight!" It really annoyed me at the time, but looking at my driver's licence recently, I realized that I have. :)
10. The oven that we bought the other day just arrived, and it'll be working as soon as the city gas people come and get the gas working!
With so little time left, I am doing my best not to be sad. I can't wait to see my family, friends and dogs. I still have so much left to do, including packing (which I have most certainly not figured out yet). I have two maps, a painting and many gifts. How to bring all this home? Well, I'm sure I'll figure it out.
Also, my dad asked for some pictures of the area around my house.
<-Winter (first snow)Spring->
And here are a couple of my bedroom. For those that don't know, I live on the fifth floor (we have no elevator), we have one bedroom, a living room, kitchen and bathroom. It's small, but we're all girls, and I'm used to it. It's pretty normal for a Russian home, and it's not a bad thing if you catch on early and figure out how not to leave things on the floor. If anyone reads this and is going to Russia, keep in my that your room almost certainly won't be singularly your room, which means you have to keep it up.
I digress. The pictures:
On another quick note, I read Emily VanLoo's latest blog recently and realized how very true so many of the things she wrote there. Writing a blog has been really pretty hard for me because after a while, you settle back into things and life gets into a rhythm. Maybe it's not the rhythm I had in the US, but it's mine all the same, and one I forget to think or write about. Living in another country, whether on exchange or for any other reason, is an amazing experience, but it's life all the same. The difference is that I have learned to take the time to appreciate the things around me more, to take notice of things I might not if not for where I was.
I won't forget that lesson, even though it's a surprisingly hard one. Life may be rhythmic, repetitive, or even boring at times, but we still have lots of special little things that make it all worth it, that we so often forget to look at.
I will be back in the USA in a little over a week, and I know I won't take the little things for granted.
From Russia,
With Love,
Bettina
Thursday, June 16, 2011
St Petersburg!!
For anyone who doesn't know, we went to Saint Petersburg last week! This is me finally writing a blog about it, haha.
So. Saint Petersburg is the city that was built by Peter the Great, Russia's most European city and the "cultural capital" of the country. It is literally one giant monument to 18th century architecture and by all accounts one of the most beautiful cities in the world!
We arrived in St Petersburg at 11am after a 12 hour train ride from Yaroslavl, and went straight into sightseeing. Needless to say, we were all exhausted--but it was so worth it.
The very first thing we saw was this large spire called "Peter's Staff". It happens to be one of the most famous symbols of the city (I got a shirt with it!).
Later of course we saw Peterhof...
Catherine the Great's palace, and several beautiful churches, including this one.
We also got to walk around every night on our own. Oh, and I almost forgot to mention that the sun never set! We were able to see St Petersburg on White Nights!
Although I can't seem to find the words to write about it, I had an amazing time, and would suggest visiting St Petersburg to anyone I speak to. It was seriously amazing, and I will definitely be returning!!
For now,
From Russia, with love,
Bettina
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